That's dreadful that the technical aspects of the situation messed up the plans :/
but "But there are some people on SL who seem to need Hunny there – people that Hunny loves very much and doesn’t want to be separated from."
Is it easy to reconcile that... ? :|
Do take care of your health... but you may want to keep the lines open for those friends you mentioned, for their health and sanity. Good Luck!... It sounds like your event would have gone well!
No, it's not easy to reconcile that. But Real Life is always supposed to come first. And there are also people depending on me in RL. People who are too old to take care of me if I end up a vegetable from another stroke. And I can't take care of them if all my resources go to SL.
So it pretty much boils down to a choice, be sensible or go on being careless until I blow all my fuses in both worlds. Then I have to disappoint everybody.
Edited at 2012-04-28 11:44 pm (UTC)
Indeedy quite true... :|
I was just trying to work out how much SL has cost me, not just time but money, and it's pretty daunting. A lot of people even get more than the minimum account there, and prices can go way up.. I know someone who spends over $200/mo there! They do recoup a lot in sim rental, but wow...
And I just have the minimum $7/mo, so it's about the cost of NetFlix (which I don't have), ...but then it has driven me to buy extra-nice video cards and two computers to handle it, so if that's factored in, ..yikes!
It also takes SO much time (which you've discovered), so I really hardly go any more... maybe once a month..
There was a time when I was spending well over $100 a month on SL. Especially when my club was on commercial land. Or before REC insisted on playing for the land we live on, instead of splitting it like we used to. Actually, before that I was the land owner. So I was paying for both the home and club.
But on top of that, I have spent many thousands of dollars shopping for clothes, things I needed for the club and garden, a large collection of Furry avatars, and lots and lots of other stuff. Plus a thousand dollar computer to run the game without lag. I dread to think of what the tally would be over the 5 and a half years I've been there, if I ever had to figure it out.
Yes, SL can get expensive if you don't have the hardware already.
If you consider SL a hobby and only get some land, it's not unreasonable. I spend lots on servers and land rental, and I skimp on other hobbies as a result. While I would love to have my own island, frankly LL has so screwed up the grid and ruined what made it fun, that the interest in such a thing has pretty much been beaten out of me.
It's a horrific tragedy when considering that SL could take the wind out of the sails from even the most dedicated and invested participants such as yourself ;P
Not an easy decision, but SL should be something that's fun, an escape, not a major stressor, so I think you've done the right thing. I hope you'll stay in touch with the friends you've made by other means.
Its a really hard thing when something you love to do becomes such a difficult thing to keep doing... I'm very sorry, hon!
What about you and REC? And all your friends?
I fully understand the need to unplug from time to time. I do it myself. But ditching the whole thing because SL was broken Fri and Sat seems to be cutting off your nose to spite your face.
At least I will be able to stay in touch with you here.
Well, to be fair, SL wasn't just broken Friday and Saturday. SL has been broken in one way or another on and off as long as I've been playing. Sometimes it was SL's fault, sometimes it was the fault of the computers I had available. But the dang Lindens are always messing with the grid, or the viewer.
If it wasn't a matter of I get busted down to novice level every time they change the viewer, SL might not be such a strain on me. But they are just never going to stop doing that.
I've been there for over 5 years and gotten a pretty good feel for what the state of normality is in SL. And there was nothing exceptional about Friday and Saturday. Seems like just about every time I DJ, something is wrong, and I've got to fight to save the event.
What was unusual was the attack I had, before the SL malfunctions even started. I got sick from just using the viewer when it was working perfectly. Which I think is pretty good evidence that I've got some kind of brain injury that is aggravated by the level of focused concentration the viewer requires.
As for REC and my friends . . . Well, I'm missing them already. Leaving isn't something I want to do. Beyond the technical headaches my second life is pretty wonderful. I hate the thought of never being with you and the others again.
Maybe if I give it up for a while whatever my problem is will have a chance to heal. Then I might be able to come back in some limited capacity. But I should probably still stay away from club owning and DJing.
We'll see what happens. I just pulled the plug. I didn't throw out the computer. So hopefully no bridges are burned if I ever decide to try coming back.
If one of your biggest problems is the reliability of your stream provider, I can solve that. And I'll give you a month free to test it to your heart's content, too. I just hate seeing friends quit because the system has bugs, especially bugs I know how to solve.
There are advantages to owning your own colo server.
I've thought a bit what to say, Perri. I'm sorry your health has gotten to the point you feel you have to make this decision, but I respect it. Hopefully you'll feel better enough to come back soon.
By the way, another of my friends recently came back after an absence. He had recovered from an illness he had.
No more Perri?
You already have investment in avatars that you shouldn't just throw away.
Take a break, then cutback and see how you feel in a month.
We're going to miss our Hunny bunny Perri.
I know the woes and taxes of trying to run and maintain a club, twice now. And if it hadn't been for real life stuff getting in there and making it hard too, and Linden Labs doing that number with the voids, now called homeland sims, we would still have had Pacific waters. And would have loved to have had you there, running a club for us. ** mainly hosting, as we would have had the stream and prize monies covered. **
I had to step away from running the clubs, Afterburner because we had to give up pacific waters, and club zero mainly because it was just me, trying to manage it with no support staff. and that never pans out.
Now, I'm not so burdened by running a club, it's much better. I was trying to do, way too much. Now that I'm not. it's been a bit better.